An epiphany

Allow me to set the scene. You’re going through life, enjoying all there is to offer. And then you’re blind. The lights slowly getting dimmer. All you see are shapes and colors now. You need help to do everything. You can’t see if people are talking to you. Your phone font is maxed and you’re only getting a word or two at a time on the screen. You’re timid because everything is unknown. You avoid eye contact. You can’t drive. You can’t work. And you KNOW it’s fixable, but that’s out of reach because now you also have no insurance.

That’s where I was 3 years ago. Cataracts were out of control and the cost to fix them was too. Through the help of some wonderful people and organizations, I was able to get my vision fixed. Hallelujah.

What I hadn’t realized was how drastically my personality had changed. I was no longer the confident, dominant female I once was. But now that my vision is better, there was still the road to recovery of my personality.

Enter Second Life, again. This was the perfect solution for my lonely single life. Emphasis on lonely and single. I LEPT at the first relationship to come along. Stupid of me, I know. I knew then that it was a bad idea but I said “fuck it” and went through with it.

After he finished fucking me over, I went through the stages of grieving. It didn’t take long because it wasn’t that great a relationship after the first week. But there was still a part of me that had gotten beaten down and that took a bit longer to shake off. But let me tell you, I’ve gotten rid of that baggage and my epiphany is this… Had I not been beaten down, I wouldn’t have come back up fighting. And now?

I’m back. I feel like the person I was before the blindness. I know who I am. I know what I want. I know where I’m headed and I’m NOT letting anyone stop me again!!

Lexi

living the second life.

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